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[boobsforme]

I have been feeling down a lot lately. I'm lonely, yet at the same time I'm cold and cynical. I think the latter is a defence mechanism.

I feel unloveable. Unworthy of anyone's attention. I'm not attractive, in body or mind. I hate to admit it, but I feel empty. I feel like I just exist, not live...

I don't know what to do.

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[feeleetfut.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, becky. I wish I lived closer to you so I could keep you company; Even if you don't feel like you're worthy of anybody's attention, you should know that you're definitely worthy of mine. I look forward to even being able to talk to you, and lament over the fact that we don't live closer. You've always been one of my closest friends, and getting to spend time with you just solidifies that.

Cheer up man, I'm sure things will get better. It just takes some time.

[cakefarts.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you Shannon. I definitely feel the same way about you. (I don't know exactly where I'll end up moving out to, so we may end up living closer than you think, soon.)

I guess in the entry, I mostly meant in a romantic sense, re: feeling unloveable. But I shouldn't overlook and under-appreciate the love my friends give me. I do truly appreciate it, though! And I always enjoy being around you.

[kamesen24.livejournal.com]

Just to reassure you Becky, you are beautiful to me. I miss hanging out with you.

[cakefarts.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you Anthony. I miss hanging out with you, too.

[nerdork.livejournal.com]

I feel like I just exist, not live...

Me too. But I guess not knowing what to do gives you more possibilities to try out than those who know but feel they can't, or know but don't want to. So maybe knowing what to do isn't that important; you can do things and if they're not what you want, you can try something else.

[cakefarts.livejournal.com]

This is a very good point! Thank you. :)