No, no, I'm just kidding. My dad is confusing, to me, but I know he has a good heart, so it's difficult to gauge him. My mother has many flaws that aren't her fault, but she tells me all the time how much she believes in me, and that I've got more potential than anyone she's ever known. Of course, I tell her she'd say that anyway because I'm her daughter.
My dad is more able to provide me with tangible things, but less able to provide me with emotional support. It's really difficult, because sometimes I need that more. He's very much a guy who will just say, DO IT, DO IT, DO IT! And all that matters is that you do - it doesn't matter how you feel about it, or your insecurities. Or, conversely, if he DOESN'T want you to do it, in order to do the 'it', you have to fight through all hell.
My mom is more easygoing about those things, but she begs me not to fall into the same position she has. I can talk more easily with her, and am emotionally extremely close to her - I'm not with my dad, unless we agree on the subject, or unless it's lighthearted.
They both have their high expectations of me - but my dad is very pushy, my mom isn't as much. I wasn't ready for a lot of things, and even though people praise me on how far I've come, do the means used to force me there justify it?
I'll give my dad a B when he's sober - and much less if he's not. He's downright scary sometimes, but I won't get into that here.
My mom, I'll give her a B, too. But that's a B overall, not fluctuating. Even when she cries and wants to kill herself, I love her all the same, and I don't think it makes her insane. I think everyone's thought about it once, at least.
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Date: 2009-04-05 09:37 pm (UTC)No, no, I'm just kidding. My dad is confusing, to me, but I know he has a good heart, so it's difficult to gauge him. My mother has many flaws that aren't her fault, but she tells me all the time how much she believes in me, and that I've got more potential than anyone she's ever known. Of course, I tell her she'd say that anyway because I'm her daughter.
My dad is more able to provide me with tangible things, but less able to provide me with emotional support. It's really difficult, because sometimes I need that more. He's very much a guy who will just say, DO IT, DO IT, DO IT! And all that matters is that you do - it doesn't matter how you feel about it, or your insecurities. Or, conversely, if he DOESN'T want you to do it, in order to do the 'it', you have to fight through all hell.
My mom is more easygoing about those things, but she begs me not to fall into the same position she has. I can talk more easily with her, and am emotionally extremely close to her - I'm not with my dad, unless we agree on the subject, or unless it's lighthearted.
They both have their high expectations of me - but my dad is very pushy, my mom isn't as much. I wasn't ready for a lot of things, and even though people praise me on how far I've come, do the means used to force me there justify it?
I'll give my dad a B when he's sober - and much less if he's not. He's downright scary sometimes, but I won't get into that here.
My mom, I'll give her a B, too. But that's a B overall, not fluctuating. Even when she cries and wants to kill herself, I love her all the same, and I don't think it makes her insane. I think everyone's thought about it once, at least.